it's back

ok so i accidently pulled an all nighter. I went to lay down at 4am but my mom was up with my grandmother... who couldn't breathe so she was giving her some suction through her trake. then I layed down at 5:30 just to get warm and dozed off but was up at 6am because i heard my mom up with my grandmother again. I went upstairs to see what all the fuss was about and my mom was giving my grandmother more suction (so soon? this is done like 3 times a day normally).... and she pulls the hose out and there is blood all over it... not only that but my grandmother still can not breathe... so my mother is taking her to the hospital. last time she was at the hospital she was put on life support and the doctors told us she would die...
.. so i dont think this visit could really be that much better....
just venting before work because i'm scared.